What if I didn't exist in this world.....

          People will never know NTIK. SBU won't know me. Teachers won't get headaches because of me. Students won't know my face. Prefects will be better without me. The TOP 5 will be greater. Cooke will shine its best. UBS. Puan Song will have more time handling others. Taekwondo. Master won't deal with my problems. All sports would be better: handball, netball, softball, basketball. Archery..Tuan Haji, Mr. Tan, aunties, uncles, qira, syahmi, iqa, rauf, akid, qis, all, will not know me. Qama.. She'll be better. I won't be in anyone's life. I won't mess up in anyone's world..

Living life..

Assalamualaikum,

   Hm..big step. Everyday is a BIG day. Full of..occurrences. *deepinhale.exhale* How do people survive in a world like this?.. I don't have heart on people anymore.. I don't leave them. They leave me. I'm a sojourn. realisethat# Feelings. Human nature. This is hard. Too much. Shoo me away.. Who am I? Or. Who was I? They see your other side. They'll remember..and never forget. Even if you've changed. For good. For them. This is harsh. I understand them. Did they understand me? People. Is it better if you're alone?..when you once thought to be better together. What happened to the past? They forget already?..when I keep on to it. What bullshit am I taking? What stuff do I have to face more? What feelings do I have to handle more? What more should I do to prove? You ask me to stop. Red light ahead. I'm a bull I guess. Why should I stop? No more care? No more love? No more time? No more sacrifices? No more coincidences? No more good stuffs? This is killing me. Silently. Cruelly. What happened to me and people? Its like water and oil. Enough said.