hakikat..

agak susah utk tijani terima hakikat yg tijani tak layak jadi prefect..tapi...apakn daya..pn sareah dh ckp; "jgn putus asa.." cik helmi dh ckp; "xpe..jgn sedeh,ada hikmah" kiran & k.izyan dh ckp, "don't cry..we actually really want you,but the teachers.." saya ckp; "hmmmhh..benda dh lepas :'( " probation time: almost 3 months. byk kenangan had created. tp..waktu interview yg buat tangki air mata saya pecah.. "takpe tijani..byk lagi benda yg  kau excellent kan,result kau agak mantap en,kau dah la aktif sukan..lek lu,perjalanan jauuuhhh lagi..benda ni..alaaa *petikjari* small small matter je..jgn difikirkan sgt.." another side of me reply; "taapi..saya x kuat..saya ni lemah..lembik..salah sikit,dh terasa..how about next year,mst ada yg ckp 'weii tijani,kau bukan prefect ke' 'eh tijani, x dpt jd prefect eh?' .. saya xleh nk lalui sume benda tu..diorang sume bg high hope dkt saya..last2,saya x dpt..saya x sanggup." saya kena redha *walaupun susah* saya kuat. forever misery~